I'm aware that he's EZ. That's really the extent of it. I played some with him and Ed MacEachan and I got my self-conscious Bill Evansisms out of my system the first gig

He's a very down to earth guy and I appreciate his interest in me and we like playing together.
My reaction to the playing was in two parts. I felt very good by the end of it. I was in severe back pain, so somewhere I "medicated" myself mid-session. But later I found that that my being relaxed doesn't necessarily translate into saying something great-- at least for me. That my expectation up to that point HAD BEEN that I equate being relaxed and comfortable with saying something on the instrument. This was one more wrinkle in the "impossibility of objective assessment conundrum". I just have no idea how to predict how I sound. And I was so sort of shocked that I didn't like it more and one point--disliking it. Eliot thought we had a hit on our hands and Ed feels pretty good about his efforts. So I'm the only one doing the suffering artist thing

and Ed knows the whole story and feels the cauliflower ear for it.
I acknowledge that my music can be difficult to digest and play due to the constant chord shifts and density and sometimes wierd bar lengths. Most of it to the ear- at least what I have currently given to the world on
Waltz for Talia - makes the music sound easier than it actually was. But that's the achievement. To one degree or another, all of us rely on programmatic language. So in the case of this music, which was more difficult in many ways than WFT, it's very difficult to assimilate without a lot of work and getting the trio to see the vision. In a way I feel that more difficult music spoken in a "change to change" fashion communicates less than very straight ahead music that is performed in that way. It runs the risk of sounding obtuse if it really doesn't get in the groove, so to speak. So in my own mind my immediate reaction was that I failed because it was missing the usual drama and coherence that I expect from myself and the sound of the band . It sounded like--yeah some hip chords and some nice turns of phrase but I wasn't really going WOW. My role is to lead the band thru my musical maze dynamically and thematically and at times I felt upon listening that I had not mastered the music enough to do that. I did practice- to the detriment of my back.
But- I'm willing to grant that I could possibly miss some good things or overfocus on the bad things preventing proper assessment of good things. This is why I was begging Ed and Eliot for their opinions.
And now...that I've gotten over the shock of what I wanted it to be not being what it was,

I am slowly making an adjustment to my heavy critic's axe towards it and giving it a fair chance. Hejii is giving me the raw tracks in a day or two. Will let you know what happens.
I'm a difficult guy to please. What can I say

Thanks for asking. I'm sure this is WAY too much information